Am I enough?

Have you ever experienced those fears so deeply rooted in your soul?
I face them everyday. I get up. Look in the mirror and wonder if I am enough. Will that wonder and fear ever go away? Am I enough for everything?

Am I enough for my job?
Will I walk through the door one day only to find that 'Pink-Slip'. To discover they found someone who does my job even better than me. Every time a promotion comes up or an opportunity to excel, I wonder, will I make it. Even if I do make it, there is the shock and immediate self-doubt. Will I be able to continue as well as I have? Am I enough?

Am I enough for my friends?
Will my fears and limitations stop me from being the best friend I can be? Will they embrace and accept the little I can offer? Give me space and I can be the best and loyal friend you could hope for, but is that enough?

Am I enough for my children?
I am broken, tired and worn thin. I wonder if I can give them the life they deserve. If a mother's love is enough to piece together their broken worlds. Is it enough, am I enough?

Am I enough for my Darling?
Is this scarred heart and the love it holds, in all its capacities enough? Is this mess that is me enough? Is my tired, stretch marked frame beautiful enough? Is my love and dedication enough? Will I always be enough?

Am I enough for me?
Am I enough to chase and fulfill my dreams? Am I enough to love me and chose the happiness and things that sing to my soul? Am I enough to stand up against all my doubts and fears? Laugh at them and shout at them to go back to the hell from whence they came?
Am I strong enough to be who I need to be? Enough of Myself, a Mother and a Lover?
Am I enough?

Yes. I am. If in some areas I fail, I will be. If not now, then someday.

I am enough. I will be enough.

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